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For a few days now, I’ve been coining around the idea of celebrating my 10th birthday; ya, 10 years old I am is how I like to see it! Hold on folks, am sane and have not lost it yet! In many ways, I see 2000 September as my ‘rebirth’ year. Not to take away credits from my parents for their efforts, but this is the time when I chose a road not-much chosen / liked / appreciated / accepted…
Life leads you through cross roads most often. It is a matter of realization and our decision that takes us through these paths and therefore the consequences…
2000 saw me in one such major cross-roads; I had to make a choice of either to pose a happy living in my marriage or prefer for real living for both of us involved. I treat this as my first-ever critical independent decision of life – a decision to part ways and let in real happiness for both of us – Then, it was a very lonely path with no one supporting my decision; but one that I wanted to risk with only my inner strength guiding me! I wanted to make my choices and take the onus; rather than accept others choices for me and take onus.
As I relive these 10 years, I see myself as a ‘river’ flown / flowing through unknown terrains. A calm and turbulent journey that has taken / taking me through moments of joy, sorrow, fun, elation, desolation, and so on…but made me stronger @ the end! Experiences Galore – that have shaped me as a ‘better human’ in many ways; that have taught me to ‘embrace life’ in its entirety and as it flows.
Having completed 10 years alone now feels like a milestone well achieved! Who said I was alone? How could I be with my books, music, friends, movies, in short my own world? I’ve also been able to live a pie of my larger dreamz:) being part of musical & movie ventures, business ventures, most of all in a position to help others when needed the most : lesser financially but more mentally & physically – what else do I need? A feeling of completeness!
Today, I wanna take this moment to share my heartfelt thanks to all my FRIENDS who are my backbone – each one knows that they mean to me!
My thanks to family; for whatever nature of family I’ve! I did learn – many Don’ts & a few Do’s - from them! Probably they did / do what best they can! In fact, my biggest achievement in these 10 years has been to make them realize that I am an individual with my own mind!
I feel every relationship has an invisible line which when crossed results in chaos! There goes my biggest learning from these 10 years:)
Btw, don't misread me to say you need to be alone to do all this! Nope; I support any life : alone, with a partner...- but make your choice and be responsible for it; that makes the difference- It did to me!
Cheers to my 10 years! Years, when I’ve ‘Lived MY Life’, ‘My Way’; Years when I’ve paved my path, shaped my life, embraced happiness and sorrow equally, taken life as it came (comes) by, as much as possible, and with nothing much to Repent about! For me that’s living Life Queen’s size ;)